Cera

When I think of you I remember all the things we didn't get to do.. the road trips we didn't take.

The times we could have spent together.

The regrets, the could have been,

should have been.

Oh how everyone saw you were made just for me\ us

The way we didn't need to say a word and knew just what we needed.

Taking too soon.

So many lives affected.

All the way too little Anna.

We remember, we hold you close.

You are never forgotten

I saw Anna today she was looking for you. When she saw me knowing you would be there with me. Her face quickly went sad seeing her best friend wasn't.

Nobody told her yet. For she is only two.

Will she understand, will she comprehend you're gone. Or will she just forget over time? So I picked her up and took her inside. I sat her on my knee and told her you had to go bye-bye and couldn't come back.

It's been months since I last saw you.

Anna was here today she found one of your toys.

She came inside almost in tears trying to say your name.

We tried to comfort her but all she wanted was you. 

So I did the only thing I could I pulled up your photos and showed her some videos.

Soon she was pointing and we were laughing remembering how you played with her remembering the memories.

Even when she was still in the belly you two would play. You would rest your head on her and she would kick at you.

Priceless memories, priceless moments, never forgotten yet forever gone.

CERA

Day Dreaming

October 29, 2006

Day Dreaming

Day Dreaming of that Day.
Nobody knows but its there.
Thats' the day all things will come true.
Just Day dream of that Day.

Day Dream of your future.
What do you see?
A family,
A lover,
A friend?

Day Dream of that Day.
Far out of reach.
Knowing someday somewhere,
that Dream is going to be in reach.
Just keep Day Dreaming of that Day.

Blow out thous candles!
Make that wish,
On that shooting star.
Blow that eyelash of your finger tip.
Just Day dream & Wish....

2011???

2011
???

What once was just a friendship has now blossomed
Into something far greater than one can imagine.
I wonder at time why I drive past your work,
Just to see if I can just get a quick glimpse of you.
Than I find myself wonder should I stop and go in.

What once started as just a fling now has become,
Wonders of when the next time I’ll see you again.
What started off as just a day now into weeks, and even months!
I say to my self we are just friends but,
Deep within I know you have become way more.

I once was broken and confused and lost to the world.
But you brought me back with your tender words and many late nights.
I was a good girl never to have been drunk, but now
I think I’m starting to enjoy this bottle of RUM!!!
I start to wonder when my next drink will be and I wait for you.

I’ve fallen for you I know that now,
In the way I have hope when my phone goes off
That it might be you on the other end.
Oh how I’m blue when we go days without a word
I’ve fallen for you I know for I have many sleepless nights when your

Thousands of miles away and,
I can’t help but worry about you.
I know you’re a soldier and are not alone.
But you made a way into my heart and
I’m starting to like the worrying part.

You’re my soldier
And you’re keeping this world safe
You’re doing your part in this world
And I think that’s what made it so easy
To Fall In LOVE with YOU!

So Long Ago

2/3/10
                                            So Long Ago


We meet so long ago.
Though the halls in schools
We became friends
We were told to stay apart
But we broke every rule they made

We were never apart.
We love one another more than people know
We have always been there for one another
We had our differences and our fights
But we always came back

You are the sister I always wanted.
You were the friend I always needed
And if I never told you what you are to me
I want you to know
You give me hope when its gone

You pick me up
And help me though.
Even when you know that I can do it alone
Your there to walk though with me.
As I am for you.

Everyday gets better and better
Knowing your only a call away
Knowing you will be there in every way
You give me that special love
Everyone needs in a friend

And I know no matter what I do
You will always be there
To pick up the pieces when
I’m spread out over every corner
Shattered over a guy.

Goodbye!! Marie Edwards

2/3/10 Another one I was asked to write....  I meet Maria in Jr High and it wasn't long before she became one of my biggest fans. Someone I could run to and confide in.  She was the second grandma I never had for moms mother died when she learned she was pregnant with me. 

Goodbye Marie Edwards

You were the Grandmother that I never had.
You were the friend I could always count on.
You encouraged me to do many great things
And some you may not have been proud.
But you stood by me though everything.

Though we may not have been blood.
I felt that was only an excuse.
You were my family
And I know I was yours.
Forever accepted never to part

My heart shattered at the call
That you have now departed.
I hope the Skies open up for you
With golden gates and angels waiting
You deserve that. For everything you did

You were always there even when
Nobody asked
Though many never said thanks
Or giving back
We always wanted too

Everyone could talk to you about anything
You were so wise
You knew everything and what you didn’t
You found out.
I’m sorry we never told you what you were to us.

You were the mother that everyone wanted
The one who sat at a bar and had a beer
Would talk of anything from God and the most
Holy of holy things
So blessed with knowledge

To the things that I can’t say
The most unholiest of things
I remember you calling and talking of things
That made my friends ears go pink when they
Knew we were talking to our Grandmother

I’ll leave it at that for you know what conversations.
The many times we called to check on you
And your most stubborn states of not answering the phone
For days, weeks, sometimes even months.
The many late nights sitting watching movies

My Dearest

2/3/10  I was asked to write this for a Good friends Grandmother.

                                             My Dearest

My dearest Paula
How I hold you dear
The joy of my life
The light of my world
You are the reason I wake….

My loving Ted is gone.
And I see him when I sleep waiting.
But then I see you,
And you have his eyes,
You are his world, and now your mine.

You are like the sunflower
Soaking the sun rays light
Growing bigger and stronger
With each passing day
You are the reason that I wake…..

So many years we share.
You, me, and your father
Though you lost him young.
He was there in your eye.
You are his princess.

You are as broad as you are tall
You have so much love to give.
And so many who wish to return it
You are beauty in a shell
Just needing to blossom

Though we had are moments.
We were always there
You took me in
And you were forever mine.
You are the reason that I wake.

Why Are You Here

2/3/10


                                     Why Are You Here!

Why are you still here?
Here in my heart and soul
I thought we parted so long ago
Though there isn’t a day that goes by
That you’re not in my mind

Your memories
Your touch
The many moments we shared
The laughter
The kisses

If being friends is for the best
Why are you still in every thought?
We never did anything to cause this
But love isn’t something you can control
It happiness at its own pace, its own time.

So many miles apart.
Only calls and letters
Kisses and hugs
Never anything more
Never given a real chance

So many sorrows
So many losses
So much love
Love has many tricks
When we are ready it will blossom even bigger

Growing with each day apart
Never given a chance to glimmer in the light
Kept on a back burner on simmer
Someday we will burn the house down